catastrophic
I spiraled earlier because I
spilled water on my sheets just
after I changed them and I had a long night
Of reading in bed planned out
And now it’s ruined and I’ll never be able
to read and then I’ll never be able
to write and then I’ll never be able
to publish and then I’ll never be able
to not work in retail.
And then I sat in my bed and cried
Which only made my sheets more wet.
And wasted away playing two dots
Until I had to leave for my shift Home Depot
And I just realized that’s what catastrophizing is
And I wish I had another session with that therapist.
I almost can’t believe there’s an entire industry
Based around someone with too many degrees
Telling kids like me to
Snap out of it.
righteous
I’m not out at home
Not for any interesting reason,
I’m just worried they’d stop talking to me
And I can’t have that, they need me around
To help them with the bills and stuff.
They just don’t realize it.
It’s not that I don’t want you
To meet them and it’s not that I don’t think we’re serious
Or don’t think it’s time.
And I won’t be the bad guy to them.
Addison is a writer and activist based out of Pittsburgh. In their free time, Addison likes to experiment with different types of crafts, including yelling, 3d printing, and high performance computing. Professionally, they hike, bike, and fight corruption in your city.